Why I express my feelings better in English?

Whenever I am feel so much emotion, I search the words for Turkish in my mind. However, English words and phrases are just there for me. Now, I am going to talk about how listening and speaking English affected my daily life.

It all started when I was a kid. I used to listen to the 2010s pop songs. Pop culture was a banger that time, I believe it still is though. Later on, listening and singing for them did not stay alone. I became a Disney fan. I mean, a huge fan. I watched and still watch many productions of Disney. As I watched more movies and shows, I got curious over the celebrities. Who were they? What they were doing? What they were wearing? Were there other movies they played? As my interest got bigger and bigger, I found myself knowing every single detail in pop culture.

Also, when I was a teenager, Tumblr was very famous. Due to its popularity, me and my friends were all using Tumblr. If you were there, you would know. We were all exposed to pop culture and celebrities. And, it was all in English.

A fun video about the influence of Tumblr:

I have not been able to learn another language yet, but I was exposed to English more than Turkish thanks to media. I watched many shows and many movies. Thus, I learned informal language. And, thus again, I can express my feelings better in English. Even though I read many books in Turkish, when I feel overwhelmed with my emotions, I just speak in English. That is honestly disturbing for me. When I am mad, I cannot find Turkish words sometimes. Or, when I am excited, I want to speak in English.

I get mad at myself from time to time. It is not cool or nice to lose my abilities in my native language. But thinking that this will be my career, it is not bad being good at expressing myself. However, I of course need to expand my Turkish knowledge. No matter which language I learn. Or no matter which language I will use for my career.

This article will be a reminder for me to learn another language and keep being good in Turkish. But, if you are struggling like me, do not worry because you are not alone! Being this much explosed to English is not easy. And this is valid for every language. I hope you had fun reading it and I hope you can learn the language you want to learn! See you in my next blog.